Have you ever really considered why we put ourselves in harmsway? Why are we so addicted to pain? What is it about our make-up that encourages such reckless behaviour?
Now, to most, I am far from ‘reckless’. In fact, I’ve been called a ‘goodie two-shoes’ on more than one occasion, as an adult. Little do many know though that I live with addictions. To alcohol and to food.
It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve made the choice to live sober (my anniversary is coming up later this month). It wasn’t an easy choice for me: I’ve been in denial and probably still am that I actually have alcoholism.
The problem that has been affecting me more than alcohol though is my destorted relationship with food. We have a love-hate relationship actually. It’s so easy for me to turn off my ‘give a shit’ button & gorge. Other times, I am so highly restrictive with my intake of certain foods that people comment how ridiculous I’m being.
Is there a happy medium for someone with addictions? How does one find it and stick to it? The answer I’ve been told is through God and Al-Anon. This is a slow-moving journey for me and I’m taking it day by day.
The more I learn about my addictions, the more I am willing to talk about it. Uncovering the blanket of shame associated with this illness is exactly what liberates us from it. So, here is my 3 minutes of vulnerability today, hoping someone out there benefits from my openness.
Sending you love & light,